So, High School..
Back in high school, a friend once told me, that she never get the chance to really get to know me, because I was busy mingling with other people or circle of friends … and it made her feel neglected and isolated in our friendship, thus we became distant until we were reunited.
High school, was the years I had the most worst memories in my entire life. This is when I had difficulty adjusting to every human being I encountered with, even with my stranged teachers. The only teacher I can remember is my taekwondo teacher and our voice coach from glee club on which my fellow group members are sophomore or freshers.
I had some really good relationship with few people back in the day, those names that I choose not to mention. I was oftentimes, distant from other groups, for no reason except, either I am not comfortable joining them or I just dont dig whatever purpose or things they get busy with. And I certainly made an impression that I was a snub instead of being snappy person.
After high school and in the present day.. I was given a chance to get to know some real people besides highschool groupies and friends, who has really made a difference in their present life and mine, these people that I never knew till I was able to meet them from work, or on different occassions.
In college, I was freed from the isolation and fake friendships in high school. I got along pretty well. and was able to find myself in a circle of what I call and treasure, my first real friends.. Some friends back in grade school, that I kept as well for the sake of long camarederie.
A whole lot of strangers and just simply a colleague .. and these people never stabbed me behind, nor say negative things about me without reason, never treated me like a nobody, and liked me, all because I am Me..
Today, I looked back and I see only few friends that have stayed with me in this lifetime. I see real friends, getting a glimpse of what has been and what’s keeping me. I see real friends and true people, eager to get more in touch with me because they missed me and they know me by heart.
And on the other side, I see friends who became a simple acquaintance, because they can’t stand me for who I am and me too.. I also see friends who are just desperate to put you down for whatever reason, and I see friends who are not really friends but an ordinary people willing to demoralize or hurt you for what it’s worth.
I realized that in life, you learn so many things with people you get involved with, even from just the cashier in the grocery.. or a taxi driver, or just the bartender that serves you ice cold drink during your night out. Friends are nurturing, but it needs a whole lot of attention to make trust and loyalty grow.
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